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08/15/2025:
> 90 year old elon musk pushes "retro" impact font ui update
> [rubbing my heatsink] auiuuuuGggghh... Auauugghh..
> "chatgpt, do you still love me?" as i'm about to get
brutally ravaged apart by a rogue drone in ww3
> hacking my enemy's neuralink so that they see
2000's bonzi buddy style malware ads on clouds & trees
08/14/2025:
> the revolution will be won with 360 no scopes
> snoop dogg voice: SMOKE FENT EVERYDAY!
> marxism-mangioneism
> a.i. generated grass blades
> first latinx gay transgender president reforms epic
america by "bringing woke back" instead of building houses
> 17th united states secretary of health and human services aaron rodgers
07/21/2025:
> artistically,
07/12/2025:
> rebirth
07/10/2025:
> no more social media! too much internet bad!
07/05/2025:
> despondent cat in a bog
07/02/2025:
> i grew up enamored by the internet. i wasn't born right into ipads,
iphones, imicrowaves, & the internet of things,
but i was betwixt the "revolution" of the internet & the natural world,
when neo-prospectors took to the web by storm to take internet "land" for cheap,
my whole life inside of a tiny little computer.
the web was a promise, a freedom network,
where everyone everywhere could log on to be themselves.
i've watched as that has crumbled.
western individualism has encapsulated the internet, and tech magnates
now believe that they hold a digital divine intervention,
that they themselves can change the world with this god-like technology.
they want to re-create god, or believe they themselves hold a power akin to one.
it's the miserable, direct result of western individualism instilled in the
millennial kids who grew up tapping keys.
the zoomers will then avatar themselves, creating
a.i. technology that masks our true selves even online,
as if we already didn't do enough of that offline.
as generation alpha grows into this world of data,
they will develop in a fake reality,
one perhaps shielded from the painful harsh noise of the
aching, screaming computer chips.
perhaps society will be separated into two, a digital & a material.
i will try to choose material.
06/30/2025:
> finger & leg intertwined
06/24/2025:
> nurtured
06/20/2025:
> i'm betwixt love & destruction!
> if you use llm's all day, you are essentially becoming the father from uzumaki,
as everyone slowly regurgitates and folds into themselves,
spiraling into a fleshy ouroboros of destruction.
it's much nicer to garden & nurture your world!
06/19/2025:
> no-backbone hierarchy, off-the-cliff dude malarkey,
a sack-lined high binary, pickled in code, a crude patriarchy,
a three-toed sloth in mud picking wiring off the burnt trees (chalky),
it feels about as insane as the time she ripped the balls off of me,
caught in a cacophony of a regurgitating website walkie-talkie,
tumbling through tense church-lined firework star batteries,
reaching for possible boulders that'll shake this bedside filth off of thee,
but under rocks all that exist are bugs without a mystical broccoli
06/18/2025:
> seagulls treat rainstorms like pizza parties
06/01/2025:
> happy pride month! ^_^
06/01/2025:
> in gloom
05/31/2025:
> many trans people come to me and shout:
"how do i pass? how do i be more like X or Y?"
"what should i wear? what should i be? i'm lost!"
here's my simple solution:
> it doesn't matter what you wear. it doesn't matter what you look like. it doesn't even matter what you do, or how you move. if you're a woman, you're a woman. if you're a man, you're a man. if you're non-binary, you're non-binary. if you're agender, you're agender. what does it matter, wearing a skirt to conform to the archetype of "woman"? if you are a woman, you are a woman irregardless of whether you're wearing snow pants, a business suit, pajamas, baggy clothes, a tight swimsuit, or nothing at all. to strive for "perfection" is to once again conform to the stereotypical norm, one we're trying to break free of, remember? be yourself!
05/30/2025:
> sometimes, it's all really aggravating.
i don't have anything to say, yet i have to talk!
05/25/2025:
> they reincarnated me into a human again.
i'm not sure why. i should have been a ladybug!
when i die, can i be a ladybug next?
05/20/2025:
> i broke a mic by screaming into it too loudly live in los angeles. whoops
> in other news, i'm obsessed with astrocytes right now
05/19/2025:
> the cynic:
"i think everyone is selfish", said the selfish one.
> the believer:
"i think everyone is awesome", said the awesome one.
> you are what you eat & you eat how you are
05/04/2025:
> writing to the rain is wonderful
05/01/2025:
> happy may day! ^_^
04/30/2025:
> neuralink future realities:
> hacking someone's brain to show them jumpscares
> ads for coca cola across the clouds
> anime face texture on sun
> open-source mod store,
#1 most downloaded is life nudity mod
04/21/2025:
> aesthetically, i'm a bit of a maximalist, but maximalist within minimal space.
i like to fill up space with things,
and i like reaching the outer edges within limitated space.
i like to create & fill this space, until it's understood.
i like marx's ideas & so i think everything's kind of connected dynamically.
i think that there are contradictions within everything: dialectics.
everything's scientific, i like science. i like psychology.
i think the brain is really interesting. mirror neurons prove
the existence of our mechanical solidarity,
& our reliance on others is proof of organic solidarity.
we grow shaped on this shared experience,
between a mother & her child, in most cases.
the baby monkey chooses the cloth monkey even though
the wire monkey has food & the cloth monkey doesn't.
within the schoolyard, the online chats, the workplace or in relationships.
scientifically, we are species of solidarity, collaboration & coexistence.
we are pack animals, and with technology, our pack is even larger.
there exists a reality in which we are all truly connected,
not for conflict like the ruling class wishes we continue the cycle of,
but for a collective collaboration, a socialism.
our brains know it, our society knows it, & workers know it.
we make, we build, we create, we forge paths, we research,
we are the engines that power this world.
we deserve a just world as a collective species.
i think we'll all get to live in a world like that one day,
hopefully soon. we deserve it. our earth deserves it.
so i say: fill out your minimal space.
take what you have, however small it is, & wield it.
wield it alongside humanity, for everyone & everything.
let's all forge a path that works for us all,
in any way that we can, big or small. we deserve that.
we need to organize. this is how we maximalize our minimal space.
04/18/2025:
> imagine a library of dead people's algorithms
04/08/2025:
> "passing" as a concept is transphobic
04/07/2025:
> we all deserve better
04/02/2025:
> the internet is an abstraction layer, much akin to an individual
in a car on a highway screaming & honking at the car ahead.
04/01/2025:
> the united states government is actively bombing
civilians in yemen right now & deregulating domestic social welfare,
but don't worry! a democrat just hit the world record for wasting time!
we're saved! oh, how should we celebrate? a bubble bath & cookies?!
03/31/2025:
> my wrist creaking like door hinge
blood spurting out the cord's fringe
meat rotating through the world's binge
the beetles making sloppy porridge
03/28/2025:
> my new album really sums it all up
03/23/2025:
> working out is awesome. eating food is awesome.
making love is awesome. socializing is awesome.
reading books is awesome. making art is awesome.
03/19/2025:
> hitting bang key command !69
03/19/2025:
> bourgeoisie elections every 4 years are not the
only way in which you can participate in politics,
they just don't want you to do anything else.
> social capital can be just as strong as financial capital & stronger!
join a local organization, or do something. better your community.
03/18/2025:
> 我喜欢昆虫
03/03/2025:
> as i read through marx's "wage labour & capital",
i am particularly struck by the way he describes peasant-labor under feudalism.
he describes the labourer in that setting as the commodity itself,
as the slave-owner owns the entire human, rather than owning the labour-power
that would occur under the stage beyond feudalism: capitalism.
this really made me take a step back to examine my current production.
i sell myself, versions of it through art & slop,
& i am beholden to these digital owners for their tools.
i have heard this modern market of an online described as a neo-feudalism.
i kind of feel that to be true.
03/02/2025:
> 132 more days on a unicycle
03/01/2025:
> test
02/28/2025:
> i think makeup is awesome, actually.
i think food is awesome too.
i think exercise is cool.
i think going outside is nice.
i like the library & the grocery store.
02/21/2025:
> top 5 hottest men:
luigi mangione, kurt cobain, che guevara,
malcolm x, robert pattinson
02/19/2025:
> last night i dreamt that everyone in my life sat me down
& told me i am too overweight.
02/09/2025:
> last night i dreamt that i was in a never-ending cubicle.
02/05/2025:
> last night i dreamt that i got lost in a maze.
after that, my friends convinced me i was dead.
02/02/2025:
> last night i dreamt that i was cannibalized.
01/27/2024:
> as america's desperate failing empire tries to consolidate power around their wealthiest few,
they're flailing to commit genocide & displacement, whilst china simply opens its doors.
americans begin to wonder, "hm, why is chongqing so pretty & los angeles is so disgusting?"
americans start to wonder "hm, why is this chinese app free
& just as good as the one i have to pay $20/mo for in the US?"
01/23/2024:
> 我不喜欢上网
01/16/2024:
> german maoist having sex:
"wow! ze dong!"
01/15/2024:
> communism is when awesome
01/09/2024:
> obvious tip: reading books is more fun if you read books
about topics that you are actually interested in!
> books are free at the library!
01/07/2024:
> i used to believe the common adage that "art is suffering". i was wrong.
art is best at a stage of self-acceptance.
> it is also good while listening to evangelion ost at 0.5x speed on loop,
but that's neither here nor there.
01/04/2024:
> uniting my society via communism before discovering
"the wheel" in civ 6 like a real world leader
01/04/2024:
> the reason social media algorithms suck is partially because of capitalism.
they are private, closed-source software intended to suck you into consumption loops.
tiktok is like 2 videos, 1 ad (repeat) &
youtube shorts is just leo von or whatever the fuck his name is.
01/01/2024:
> putting the entirety of the land-owning class into donkey kong barrels
& tossing them like those tiktoks where they throw
beer bottles full of orbeez down a flight of stairs
01/01/2024:
> last year I achieved the unthinkable: read a few books.
imagine what this year holds in store.
maybe i will eat peanut butter more often
01/01/2025:
> humanity possesses an ungodly amount of computing power, all being used to
generate a.i. porn of minions, but we could very easily
use all of this computing power (or even less) to logistically
allocate resources as needed to every worker around the world.
corporations already know how to allocate resources better than they ever have.
ever heard of amazon? that bitch allocates millions & millions
of products across distribution centers across the entire country,
all so you can get that off-brand marvel iron man funko pop overnight at 6am.
it's just that this is used in the context of capitalism, but this sort of technical marvel
could very easily be used (abstracted bigger) to solve all logistical problems
to do with resource allocation under socialism. think about how much food waste exists,
where a grocery store throws out "expired" food, or products that didn't sell.
where does this all go? landfills, the sea, piling up filth that could have been allocated to someone in need.
it's not very hard conceptually to imagine this world. there is a path to socialism,
there's just a bourgeoisie class standing in front of it.
12/31/2024:
> if the brain is a reflection of matter,
& a computer is the reflection of the brain,
the computer is & always will be a copy of the brain,
another reflection of matter. (another abstraction)
12/29/2024:
> i think they let jimmy carter sit in a vat like mewtwo for years just so he could hit age 100
& then they unplugged him & watched as nature took its course
12/28/2024:
> explodes into a million fucking pieces & reassembles into a fleshy mecha astrid,
dismantles capitalism & makes out with hot wife
12/24/2024:
> i have never once digested beef, pork, lobster, caviar,
porkchop, mussels, clams, salmon, squid, veal, mutton, lamb,
sardines, trout, tuna, shark, octopus, duck, quail or goose.
> i have digested chicken (maybe a dozen times), turkey (once),
cod, tilapia, flounder (once) & gelatin before.
12/21/2024:
> queer dick be like: dock
> qp
> db
12/20/2024:
> before every recording, stream, live show or performance,
i get extreme performance anxiety
12/15/2024:
> i am the people's _______
> diet: avocado, fruit, nuts, entire pack of tofurky, caffeine
12/14/2024:
> dies of happy: evaporates into a field of mushrooms,
running up trees & dancing with glee
12/13/2024:
> everyone is a first-place finisher in a sperm race
12/08/2024:
> dies of happy: explodes into a million tiny pieces of fluff
buried in snow surrounded by an innocent warmth
12/05/2024:
> hello ceos!
12/03/2024:
> bagels: america's greatest breakfast food
11/30/2024:
> sometimes i think birthmarks on my arm are ants
11/26/2024:
> currently, i work for dozens of hours a week making a comic for $68 per month (& i love it)
11/22/2024:
> mental state collapsed
11/18/2024:
> gpt, pull up 1700 psychosexual fungi
> gpt, generate a twonk minion barebacking tomato from veggietales
> gpt, how much tree does this cost
> gpt, simulate taco bell drive-thru
11/18/2024:
> a big floating zipper and i pull it and out pops 1,000+ rotating scarabs wearing tu-tu's sprawled across the floor like marbles out of a bag off the side of a table
11/18/2024:
> computing is currently very free for the people in a general sense, but it could be much more free. most people don't tend to think about their machines ideologically, but the machines in which many desktop users run are built for-profit in closed-source capitalistic structures. as of 2024, most desktop computers run windows or macos as their operating system, but many do not know that free and open-source alternatives exist, built and powered by the people for the people: linux. in many parts of the world, linux is taught in schools. on websites like github, it is very easy to find free, open-source linux applications or projects that make windows or macos applications obsolete. the technology and passion exist to prop up very powerful applications, operating systems, and software that maintain a free, open-source structure. an ideal world for all digital peoples would be a world where the industry standard for all types of computing is operated under gnu/linux running free, open-source software. global server operating system market share already has linux above 62%. most people around the world use android as their smartphone operating system of choice. every year, daily driver desktop statistics show linux growing. in september of 2023, linux held 3.02% of the desktop operating system market share worldwide. in july 2024, it holds 4.4% of the global market share. gaming has recently made strides with the advent of the steam deck. according to protondb, a resource for linux gaming compatibility run by the people, a majority of games are playable. as of august 8th, 2024, 78% of the top 1000 most popular steam games are playable, with most of the "unplayable" games coming down to corporate restrictions. an ideal world sees the end of corporations like microsoft or apple: capitalistic machines grinding technology to a halt by forcing the dreaded paid operating system down the throats of the people. that being said, there still needs to be work to do in the gnu/linux front. sometimes, corporate, paid applications on windows provide closed-source solutions that are simply unparalleled. ideally, as more and more users switch to linux, these new users can help contribute to an ecosystem of applications and operating systems that truly dismantle the capitalist core of desktop and general computing.
> computing is also very wasteful. as technologies develop, more and more power is needed to keep devices running and advancing. it is expected, with the advent of generative artificial intelligence, that the data-center share of electricity consumption in the united states could triple 2022's numbers by 2030. computers were initially meant to solve specific problems, but now they are meant to do everything possible. it's expected of your phone, or even your microwave, to do everything. i've heard jokes about playing minecraft in your tesla car. it's important for all people to think about how we can make computing more sustainable, purposeful, and less wasteful.
> most people in the world have access to the internet, an ever-expanding network that allows us to connect online. most would perhaps think that the internet is free and great for peoples at first glance, but it's actually quite dystopian. the problem of the internet lies in the way web standards have shifted towards monopoly and centralization at such lightning speeds. this centralization isn't centered around people or democracy or anything nice like that. this centralization is powered by a handful of large corporations that have no reason to cater to the common person. in 2019, visualcapitalist.com noted that 41.5% of the public cloud market is run on amazon web services, with another 29.4% powered by microsoft azure. when thinking about which websites to visit, whether on your computer, your phone, or your blender, most think of only a handful. maybe jane uses twitter, reddit & tumblr. maybe jack uses amazon to shop, and browses tiktok late at night to laugh. the web used to be fairly decentralized, consisting of a plethora of servers running hobbyist websites or niche topic forums. now, you are forced into large congregations (twitter as an example), force-fed content algorithmically until your stomach turns blue. there isn't much power to the user. in fact, it feels as if power & customization are stripped away at the user-level with every passing day. it used to be that you could create all of the html & css yourself on most website profiles. it's fun to think about a web that could be run more for the people's sake, rather than to seek profit via the deliverance of advertisements and algorithmic routines. the internet also has many ethical pitfalls. it would be interesting to imagine an internet with greater regulations set in place to thwart data-collection, protect user privacy, and ban for-profit practices. imagine a world where social media users need to be 18 to post. imagine a world where, in the united states, you wouldn't just be able to search someone's name and find all of their information readily available, sold. in the united states, the government is often unconcerned with these matters, and perhaps it's no wonder when considering the average age of an american congress-person. in 2021, half of the united states senate was 65 years or older. the 117th united states congress was the oldest it had been in decades. it's no surprise that old, crotchety bastards are unconcerned with the ethical issues in computing and internet practice. for younger people, however, the internet is an important tool, and perhaps we don't yet understand the full consequences of this lack of regulation.
> the goal of any capitalist structure is to provide profit to the capitalist owner. this concept extends to a digital product as well, whether it be a website or application. to sell these digital products, you might need to market your online product. thus, you might need a data farm to collect ages, hair colors, heights, breast sizes, condiment preferences, and favorite music albums. thus, you might get recommended a new diaper brand when you open your amazon application because you've had a baby recently. to get people to use a capitalist-born application, it often needs to be predatory. corporations aren't concerned with making an application that actually satisfies the user's full scope of ambitions. it often just has to run, and sometimes it's not even good at doing that. if the only goal is to derive profit, a website or an application will do the bare minimum to satisfy the user. it will instead trap the user in its algorithm, make the user angered by showing posts it knows the user won't like, giving the user advertisements based on its perceptions, and hiding this all behind a concealed layer in a closed-source context. the beauty of open-source is that you can view this code, and programmers are certainly able to notice when the code is acting nefariously, quite quickly in fact. in a societal structure where the government and the people worked for the people, an internet wouldn't spy on the user, an application wouldn't show you an advertisement for colgate after a candy-eating binge, and a video game certainly wouldn't install at the kernel level. it is practices like these which any computer user should look to conquer and overcome. a world does exist where all software and computers are open-source and safe for all users.
sources: [global server os market share], [global desktop os market share], [protondb], [data-center electricity consumption], [aws dominance], [us congress age]
11/18/2024:
> i feel absolutely meaningless, hopeless, like i'm nothing,
worthless, & that's actually very comforting. space dust. atoms.
11/14/2024:
> when i was a kid i used to sort things into long rows.
> as a toddler i'd sort the pots and pans, pulling
them out from the cupboards & arranging them on the kitchen floor.
> i love to get a reaction,
my whole life like a piece of cheese dangled in front of me.
11/14/2024:
> when i made "/ost" i thought i could die.
i thought that it was the last thing i'd ever create.
i was convinced i could die after that... forever,
but then i woke up the next day.
11/13/2024:
> fruity loop tires, zaboomafoo fighters, gargantuan orangutan
> leopard's leotard, protesting in hell, eating 50 cherry pits
11/12/2024:
> rainbow road is a long, grueling course, but fulfilling
11/07/2024:
> all i do is work.
when i'm done working, i work on something else.
sometimes, while i'm working on something,
i work on another project at the same time.
if i don't keep working, i will die, right? right?
when people are done working, what do they do?
10/30/2024:
> might pick up bedrotting
10/27/2024:
> the moon, caught in my telescope with its pants down!
10/21/2024:
> a jelly roll filled with ball and jacks; crunch!
10/16/2024:
> state of overwatch:
"phreak in my backline, can you switch sigma?"
10/13/2024:
> putting pop rocks in my cerebrospinal fluid
10/07/2024:
> stayed up for 25 hours & then slept for 7
10/05/2024:
> about to take pa nts off of robot:
"do the nuts match the bolts?"
10/03/2024:
> stayed up for 30 hours & then slept for 15
09/28/2024:
> queuing up "breakcore mixes to disassociate & split your entire flesh apart to"
09/26/2024:
> an anecdote post-twitchcon:
on the way home, i was very disheveled, sick, wasn't wearing any makeup.
hell, i was wearing a baggy t-shirt & pajama pants, no bra.
when the 50-60 year old flight attendant came up to me for drinks,
she said "and for you ma'am?"
09/25/2024:
> click, clack on the keys 'til the fingers pop off like rockets
09/17/2024:
> oh, i've been listening to the same katamari damacy song on loop for an hour
09/16/2024:
> cows like to eat grass; humans like to eat ( , )
09/11/2024:
> i like trying to stay up and brute for ce psat drowasty drug s
09/03/2024:
> many, many neurons frantically shoveling their axons into a woodchipper
09/01/2024:
> not a lot left to scrape off of a prickly corn husk
08/23/2024:
> flaying myself open until slugs burst out and sprawl like yarn
08/18/2024:
> an ever-increasingly painful fight at the self
08/08/2024:
> hyperfocusing on making everything neat & perfect all of the time
08/07/2024:
> 200 democrats sitting in a lab strapped up, training off of a.i. obama data
> my brain splattered on the hot, wet asphalt!!!
08/06/2024:
> it's bonkers to keep doing so... as if doing so ever gets done
07/29/2024:
> richard nixon triangulating jellyfish with heart tumors ecstatically
07/26/2024:
> cannibal ladybug swimming in a jar full of glitter
07/23/2024:
> breakcore citrus in an artificial aquarium; stickered cake
07/20/2024:
> 6th day straight with a migraine; thought diffusion? head dissipated!
07/12/2024:
> using biofeedback to train every drop of piss in my kidney to convert to
good neurotransmitters before reaching bladder; never urinating again
07/07/2024:
> opens my trenchcoat to reveal 24 different rare, taxidermized scarabs
07/03/2024:
> manifesting a giant lesbian harem like the akatsuki
07/01/2024:
> slutty elaine benes lainish linux user with an ed
06/27/2024:
> the character is tamer than the person
06/26/2024:
> melting my brain waves 'til they rainbow stripe off
06/24/2024:
> dumping cortisol juice directly into the dvd slot
06/19/2024:
> oh! i just want to eat peanut butter...
06/14/2024:
> my brain feels like the door ripped off mid-flight
05/31/2024:
> self-liquefy into a 14 count ghost shrimp bucket
05/29/2024:
> french hilary clinton: "escargot to the polls!"
05/25/2024:
> don't belong
05/20/2024:
> my neuroplasticity demon is rubber-banding
05/05/2024:
> the bugs get the last laugh
05/01/2024:
> i'm about to play real life katamari starting with my left testicle
04/30/2024:
> one more coffee
soon the diving beetles roost
04/25/2024:
> unimaginative praying mantis membrane fucker color
04/21/2024:
> cracking pistachios by hand reading das kapital
with evangelion ost blaring in both ears
03/28/2024:
> trying to dress like elaine benes via 80's/90's powersuit
03/21/2024:
> my computer runs on debian & i like worms
03/09/2024:
> obliterate neurons; tinker with carmudgeon goblin
install new-rons: neon genesis evangelion angel
03/02/2024:
> so get this, right.
so like the master boot record can only make 4 partitions.
so like yeah you could slap an
extended partition onto partition 4 or something
& fuck that shit up with some logical partitions. but get this, dude.
you could also literally just fuck with linux's GUID partitioning system
& motherfuicker every hard drive can have 128 PARTITIONS.
EVERY SINGLE ONE.
02/20/2024:
> candle lit: christmas spice
02/18/2024:
> to the tune of death grips' "hacker":
headed for the nerv geofront wing
throw up an at-field at the influx of angels 'n things
on the way; never call it a rei
hotboxing shinji's evangelion for the third impact today
asuka on the way; bigger wings
02/04/2024:
> i am computer
> 90 year old elon musk pushes "retro" impact font ui update
> [rubbing my heatsink] auiuuuuGggghh... Auauugghh..
> "chatgpt, do you still love me?" as i'm about to get
brutally ravaged apart by a rogue drone in ww3
> hacking my enemy's neuralink so that they see
2000's bonzi buddy style malware ads on clouds & trees
08/14/2025:
> the revolution will be won with 360 no scopes
> snoop dogg voice: SMOKE FENT EVERYDAY!
> marxism-mangioneism
> a.i. generated grass blades
> first latinx gay transgender president reforms epic
america by "bringing woke back" instead of building houses
> 17th united states secretary of health and human services aaron rodgers
07/21/2025:
> artistically,
07/12/2025:
> rebirth
07/10/2025:
> no more social media! too much internet bad!
07/05/2025:
> despondent cat in a bog
07/02/2025:
> i grew up enamored by the internet. i wasn't born right into ipads,
iphones, imicrowaves, & the internet of things,
but i was betwixt the "revolution" of the internet & the natural world,
when neo-prospectors took to the web by storm to take internet "land" for cheap,
my whole life inside of a tiny little computer.
the web was a promise, a freedom network,
where everyone everywhere could log on to be themselves.
i've watched as that has crumbled.
western individualism has encapsulated the internet, and tech magnates
now believe that they hold a digital divine intervention,
that they themselves can change the world with this god-like technology.
they want to re-create god, or believe they themselves hold a power akin to one.
it's the miserable, direct result of western individualism instilled in the
millennial kids who grew up tapping keys.
the zoomers will then avatar themselves, creating
a.i. technology that masks our true selves even online,
as if we already didn't do enough of that offline.
as generation alpha grows into this world of data,
they will develop in a fake reality,
one perhaps shielded from the painful harsh noise of the
aching, screaming computer chips.
perhaps society will be separated into two, a digital & a material.
i will try to choose material.
06/30/2025:
> finger & leg intertwined
06/24/2025:
> nurtured
06/20/2025:
> i'm betwixt love & destruction!
> if you use llm's all day, you are essentially becoming the father from uzumaki,
as everyone slowly regurgitates and folds into themselves,
spiraling into a fleshy ouroboros of destruction.
it's much nicer to garden & nurture your world!
06/19/2025:
> no-backbone hierarchy, off-the-cliff dude malarkey,
a sack-lined high binary, pickled in code, a crude patriarchy,
a three-toed sloth in mud picking wiring off the burnt trees (chalky),
it feels about as insane as the time she ripped the balls off of me,
caught in a cacophony of a regurgitating website walkie-talkie,
tumbling through tense church-lined firework star batteries,
reaching for possible boulders that'll shake this bedside filth off of thee,
but under rocks all that exist are bugs without a mystical broccoli
06/18/2025:
> seagulls treat rainstorms like pizza parties
06/01/2025:
> happy pride month! ^_^
06/01/2025:
> in gloom
05/31/2025:
> many trans people come to me and shout:
"how do i pass? how do i be more like X or Y?"
"what should i wear? what should i be? i'm lost!"
here's my simple solution:
> it doesn't matter what you wear. it doesn't matter what you look like. it doesn't even matter what you do, or how you move. if you're a woman, you're a woman. if you're a man, you're a man. if you're non-binary, you're non-binary. if you're agender, you're agender. what does it matter, wearing a skirt to conform to the archetype of "woman"? if you are a woman, you are a woman irregardless of whether you're wearing snow pants, a business suit, pajamas, baggy clothes, a tight swimsuit, or nothing at all. to strive for "perfection" is to once again conform to the stereotypical norm, one we're trying to break free of, remember? be yourself!
05/30/2025:
> sometimes, it's all really aggravating.
i don't have anything to say, yet i have to talk!
05/25/2025:
> they reincarnated me into a human again.
i'm not sure why. i should have been a ladybug!
when i die, can i be a ladybug next?
05/20/2025:
> i broke a mic by screaming into it too loudly live in los angeles. whoops
> in other news, i'm obsessed with astrocytes right now
05/19/2025:
> the cynic:
"i think everyone is selfish", said the selfish one.
> the believer:
"i think everyone is awesome", said the awesome one.
> you are what you eat & you eat how you are
05/04/2025:
> writing to the rain is wonderful
05/01/2025:
> happy may day! ^_^
04/30/2025:
> neuralink future realities:
> hacking someone's brain to show them jumpscares
> ads for coca cola across the clouds
> anime face texture on sun
> open-source mod store,
#1 most downloaded is life nudity mod
04/21/2025:
> aesthetically, i'm a bit of a maximalist, but maximalist within minimal space.
i like to fill up space with things,
and i like reaching the outer edges within limitated space.
i like to create & fill this space, until it's understood.
i like marx's ideas & so i think everything's kind of connected dynamically.
i think that there are contradictions within everything: dialectics.
everything's scientific, i like science. i like psychology.
i think the brain is really interesting. mirror neurons prove
the existence of our mechanical solidarity,
& our reliance on others is proof of organic solidarity.
we grow shaped on this shared experience,
between a mother & her child, in most cases.
the baby monkey chooses the cloth monkey even though
the wire monkey has food & the cloth monkey doesn't.
within the schoolyard, the online chats, the workplace or in relationships.
scientifically, we are species of solidarity, collaboration & coexistence.
we are pack animals, and with technology, our pack is even larger.
there exists a reality in which we are all truly connected,
not for conflict like the ruling class wishes we continue the cycle of,
but for a collective collaboration, a socialism.
our brains know it, our society knows it, & workers know it.
we make, we build, we create, we forge paths, we research,
we are the engines that power this world.
we deserve a just world as a collective species.
i think we'll all get to live in a world like that one day,
hopefully soon. we deserve it. our earth deserves it.
so i say: fill out your minimal space.
take what you have, however small it is, & wield it.
wield it alongside humanity, for everyone & everything.
let's all forge a path that works for us all,
in any way that we can, big or small. we deserve that.
we need to organize. this is how we maximalize our minimal space.
04/18/2025:
> imagine a library of dead people's algorithms
04/08/2025:
> "passing" as a concept is transphobic
04/07/2025:
> we all deserve better
04/02/2025:
> the internet is an abstraction layer, much akin to an individual
in a car on a highway screaming & honking at the car ahead.
04/01/2025:
> the united states government is actively bombing
civilians in yemen right now & deregulating domestic social welfare,
but don't worry! a democrat just hit the world record for wasting time!
we're saved! oh, how should we celebrate? a bubble bath & cookies?!
03/31/2025:
> my wrist creaking like door hinge
blood spurting out the cord's fringe
meat rotating through the world's binge
the beetles making sloppy porridge
03/28/2025:
> my new album really sums it all up
03/23/2025:
> working out is awesome. eating food is awesome.
making love is awesome. socializing is awesome.
reading books is awesome. making art is awesome.
03/19/2025:
> hitting bang key command !69
03/19/2025:
> bourgeoisie elections every 4 years are not the
only way in which you can participate in politics,
they just don't want you to do anything else.
> social capital can be just as strong as financial capital & stronger!
join a local organization, or do something. better your community.
03/18/2025:
> 我喜欢昆虫
03/03/2025:
> as i read through marx's "wage labour & capital",
i am particularly struck by the way he describes peasant-labor under feudalism.
he describes the labourer in that setting as the commodity itself,
as the slave-owner owns the entire human, rather than owning the labour-power
that would occur under the stage beyond feudalism: capitalism.
this really made me take a step back to examine my current production.
i sell myself, versions of it through art & slop,
& i am beholden to these digital owners for their tools.
i have heard this modern market of an online described as a neo-feudalism.
i kind of feel that to be true.
03/02/2025:
> 132 more days on a unicycle
03/01/2025:
> test
02/28/2025:
> i think makeup is awesome, actually.
i think food is awesome too.
i think exercise is cool.
i think going outside is nice.
i like the library & the grocery store.
02/21/2025:
> top 5 hottest men:
luigi mangione, kurt cobain, che guevara,
malcolm x, robert pattinson
02/19/2025:
> last night i dreamt that everyone in my life sat me down
& told me i am too overweight.
02/09/2025:
> last night i dreamt that i was in a never-ending cubicle.
02/05/2025:
> last night i dreamt that i got lost in a maze.
after that, my friends convinced me i was dead.
02/02/2025:
> last night i dreamt that i was cannibalized.
01/27/2024:
> as america's desperate failing empire tries to consolidate power around their wealthiest few,
they're flailing to commit genocide & displacement, whilst china simply opens its doors.
americans begin to wonder, "hm, why is chongqing so pretty & los angeles is so disgusting?"
americans start to wonder "hm, why is this chinese app free
& just as good as the one i have to pay $20/mo for in the US?"
01/23/2024:
> 我不喜欢上网
01/16/2024:
> german maoist having sex:
"wow! ze dong!"
01/15/2024:
> communism is when awesome
01/09/2024:
> obvious tip: reading books is more fun if you read books
about topics that you are actually interested in!
> books are free at the library!
01/07/2024:
> i used to believe the common adage that "art is suffering". i was wrong.
art is best at a stage of self-acceptance.
> it is also good while listening to evangelion ost at 0.5x speed on loop,
but that's neither here nor there.
01/04/2024:
> uniting my society via communism before discovering
"the wheel" in civ 6 like a real world leader
01/04/2024:
> the reason social media algorithms suck is partially because of capitalism.
they are private, closed-source software intended to suck you into consumption loops.
tiktok is like 2 videos, 1 ad (repeat) &
youtube shorts is just leo von or whatever the fuck his name is.
01/01/2024:
> putting the entirety of the land-owning class into donkey kong barrels
& tossing them like those tiktoks where they throw
beer bottles full of orbeez down a flight of stairs
01/01/2024:
> last year I achieved the unthinkable: read a few books.
imagine what this year holds in store.
maybe i will eat peanut butter more often
01/01/2025:
> humanity possesses an ungodly amount of computing power, all being used to
generate a.i. porn of minions, but we could very easily
use all of this computing power (or even less) to logistically
allocate resources as needed to every worker around the world.
corporations already know how to allocate resources better than they ever have.
ever heard of amazon? that bitch allocates millions & millions
of products across distribution centers across the entire country,
all so you can get that off-brand marvel iron man funko pop overnight at 6am.
it's just that this is used in the context of capitalism, but this sort of technical marvel
could very easily be used (abstracted bigger) to solve all logistical problems
to do with resource allocation under socialism. think about how much food waste exists,
where a grocery store throws out "expired" food, or products that didn't sell.
where does this all go? landfills, the sea, piling up filth that could have been allocated to someone in need.
it's not very hard conceptually to imagine this world. there is a path to socialism,
there's just a bourgeoisie class standing in front of it.
12/31/2024:
> if the brain is a reflection of matter,
& a computer is the reflection of the brain,
the computer is & always will be a copy of the brain,
another reflection of matter. (another abstraction)
12/29/2024:
> i think they let jimmy carter sit in a vat like mewtwo for years just so he could hit age 100
& then they unplugged him & watched as nature took its course
12/28/2024:
> explodes into a million fucking pieces & reassembles into a fleshy mecha astrid,
dismantles capitalism & makes out with hot wife
12/24/2024:
> i have never once digested beef, pork, lobster, caviar,
porkchop, mussels, clams, salmon, squid, veal, mutton, lamb,
sardines, trout, tuna, shark, octopus, duck, quail or goose.
> i have digested chicken (maybe a dozen times), turkey (once),
cod, tilapia, flounder (once) & gelatin before.
12/21/2024:
> queer dick be like: dock
> qp
> db
12/20/2024:
> before every recording, stream, live show or performance,
i get extreme performance anxiety
12/15/2024:
> i am the people's _______
> diet: avocado, fruit, nuts, entire pack of tofurky, caffeine
12/14/2024:
> dies of happy: evaporates into a field of mushrooms,
running up trees & dancing with glee
12/13/2024:
> everyone is a first-place finisher in a sperm race
12/08/2024:
> dies of happy: explodes into a million tiny pieces of fluff
buried in snow surrounded by an innocent warmth
12/05/2024:
> hello ceos!
12/03/2024:
> bagels: america's greatest breakfast food
11/30/2024:
> sometimes i think birthmarks on my arm are ants
11/26/2024:
> currently, i work for dozens of hours a week making a comic for $68 per month (& i love it)
11/22/2024:
> mental state collapsed
11/18/2024:
> gpt, pull up 1700 psychosexual fungi
> gpt, generate a twonk minion barebacking tomato from veggietales
> gpt, how much tree does this cost
> gpt, simulate taco bell drive-thru
11/18/2024:
> a big floating zipper and i pull it and out pops 1,000+ rotating scarabs wearing tu-tu's sprawled across the floor like marbles out of a bag off the side of a table
11/18/2024:
> computing is currently very free for the people in a general sense, but it could be much more free. most people don't tend to think about their machines ideologically, but the machines in which many desktop users run are built for-profit in closed-source capitalistic structures. as of 2024, most desktop computers run windows or macos as their operating system, but many do not know that free and open-source alternatives exist, built and powered by the people for the people: linux. in many parts of the world, linux is taught in schools. on websites like github, it is very easy to find free, open-source linux applications or projects that make windows or macos applications obsolete. the technology and passion exist to prop up very powerful applications, operating systems, and software that maintain a free, open-source structure. an ideal world for all digital peoples would be a world where the industry standard for all types of computing is operated under gnu/linux running free, open-source software. global server operating system market share already has linux above 62%. most people around the world use android as their smartphone operating system of choice. every year, daily driver desktop statistics show linux growing. in september of 2023, linux held 3.02% of the desktop operating system market share worldwide. in july 2024, it holds 4.4% of the global market share. gaming has recently made strides with the advent of the steam deck. according to protondb, a resource for linux gaming compatibility run by the people, a majority of games are playable. as of august 8th, 2024, 78% of the top 1000 most popular steam games are playable, with most of the "unplayable" games coming down to corporate restrictions. an ideal world sees the end of corporations like microsoft or apple: capitalistic machines grinding technology to a halt by forcing the dreaded paid operating system down the throats of the people. that being said, there still needs to be work to do in the gnu/linux front. sometimes, corporate, paid applications on windows provide closed-source solutions that are simply unparalleled. ideally, as more and more users switch to linux, these new users can help contribute to an ecosystem of applications and operating systems that truly dismantle the capitalist core of desktop and general computing.
> computing is also very wasteful. as technologies develop, more and more power is needed to keep devices running and advancing. it is expected, with the advent of generative artificial intelligence, that the data-center share of electricity consumption in the united states could triple 2022's numbers by 2030. computers were initially meant to solve specific problems, but now they are meant to do everything possible. it's expected of your phone, or even your microwave, to do everything. i've heard jokes about playing minecraft in your tesla car. it's important for all people to think about how we can make computing more sustainable, purposeful, and less wasteful.
> most people in the world have access to the internet, an ever-expanding network that allows us to connect online. most would perhaps think that the internet is free and great for peoples at first glance, but it's actually quite dystopian. the problem of the internet lies in the way web standards have shifted towards monopoly and centralization at such lightning speeds. this centralization isn't centered around people or democracy or anything nice like that. this centralization is powered by a handful of large corporations that have no reason to cater to the common person. in 2019, visualcapitalist.com noted that 41.5% of the public cloud market is run on amazon web services, with another 29.4% powered by microsoft azure. when thinking about which websites to visit, whether on your computer, your phone, or your blender, most think of only a handful. maybe jane uses twitter, reddit & tumblr. maybe jack uses amazon to shop, and browses tiktok late at night to laugh. the web used to be fairly decentralized, consisting of a plethora of servers running hobbyist websites or niche topic forums. now, you are forced into large congregations (twitter as an example), force-fed content algorithmically until your stomach turns blue. there isn't much power to the user. in fact, it feels as if power & customization are stripped away at the user-level with every passing day. it used to be that you could create all of the html & css yourself on most website profiles. it's fun to think about a web that could be run more for the people's sake, rather than to seek profit via the deliverance of advertisements and algorithmic routines. the internet also has many ethical pitfalls. it would be interesting to imagine an internet with greater regulations set in place to thwart data-collection, protect user privacy, and ban for-profit practices. imagine a world where social media users need to be 18 to post. imagine a world where, in the united states, you wouldn't just be able to search someone's name and find all of their information readily available, sold. in the united states, the government is often unconcerned with these matters, and perhaps it's no wonder when considering the average age of an american congress-person. in 2021, half of the united states senate was 65 years or older. the 117th united states congress was the oldest it had been in decades. it's no surprise that old, crotchety bastards are unconcerned with the ethical issues in computing and internet practice. for younger people, however, the internet is an important tool, and perhaps we don't yet understand the full consequences of this lack of regulation.
> the goal of any capitalist structure is to provide profit to the capitalist owner. this concept extends to a digital product as well, whether it be a website or application. to sell these digital products, you might need to market your online product. thus, you might need a data farm to collect ages, hair colors, heights, breast sizes, condiment preferences, and favorite music albums. thus, you might get recommended a new diaper brand when you open your amazon application because you've had a baby recently. to get people to use a capitalist-born application, it often needs to be predatory. corporations aren't concerned with making an application that actually satisfies the user's full scope of ambitions. it often just has to run, and sometimes it's not even good at doing that. if the only goal is to derive profit, a website or an application will do the bare minimum to satisfy the user. it will instead trap the user in its algorithm, make the user angered by showing posts it knows the user won't like, giving the user advertisements based on its perceptions, and hiding this all behind a concealed layer in a closed-source context. the beauty of open-source is that you can view this code, and programmers are certainly able to notice when the code is acting nefariously, quite quickly in fact. in a societal structure where the government and the people worked for the people, an internet wouldn't spy on the user, an application wouldn't show you an advertisement for colgate after a candy-eating binge, and a video game certainly wouldn't install at the kernel level. it is practices like these which any computer user should look to conquer and overcome. a world does exist where all software and computers are open-source and safe for all users.
sources: [global server os market share], [global desktop os market share], [protondb], [data-center electricity consumption], [aws dominance], [us congress age]
11/18/2024:
> i feel absolutely meaningless, hopeless, like i'm nothing,
worthless, & that's actually very comforting. space dust. atoms.
11/14/2024:
> when i was a kid i used to sort things into long rows.
> as a toddler i'd sort the pots and pans, pulling
them out from the cupboards & arranging them on the kitchen floor.
> i love to get a reaction,
my whole life like a piece of cheese dangled in front of me.
11/14/2024:
> when i made "/ost" i thought i could die.
i thought that it was the last thing i'd ever create.
i was convinced i could die after that... forever,
but then i woke up the next day.
11/13/2024:
> fruity loop tires, zaboomafoo fighters, gargantuan orangutan
> leopard's leotard, protesting in hell, eating 50 cherry pits
11/12/2024:
> rainbow road is a long, grueling course, but fulfilling
11/07/2024:
> all i do is work.
when i'm done working, i work on something else.
sometimes, while i'm working on something,
i work on another project at the same time.
if i don't keep working, i will die, right? right?
when people are done working, what do they do?
10/30/2024:
> might pick up bedrotting
10/27/2024:
> the moon, caught in my telescope with its pants down!
10/21/2024:
> a jelly roll filled with ball and jacks; crunch!
10/16/2024:
> state of overwatch:
"phreak in my backline, can you switch sigma?"
10/13/2024:
> putting pop rocks in my cerebrospinal fluid
10/07/2024:
> stayed up for 25 hours & then slept for 7
10/05/2024:
> about to take pa nts off of robot:
"do the nuts match the bolts?"
10/03/2024:
> stayed up for 30 hours & then slept for 15
09/28/2024:
> queuing up "breakcore mixes to disassociate & split your entire flesh apart to"
09/26/2024:
> an anecdote post-twitchcon:
on the way home, i was very disheveled, sick, wasn't wearing any makeup.
hell, i was wearing a baggy t-shirt & pajama pants, no bra.
when the 50-60 year old flight attendant came up to me for drinks,
she said "and for you ma'am?"
09/25/2024:
> click, clack on the keys 'til the fingers pop off like rockets
09/17/2024:
> oh, i've been listening to the same katamari damacy song on loop for an hour
09/16/2024:
> cows like to eat grass; humans like to eat ( , )
09/11/2024:
> i like trying to stay up and brute for ce psat drowasty drug s
09/03/2024:
> many, many neurons frantically shoveling their axons into a woodchipper
09/01/2024:
> not a lot left to scrape off of a prickly corn husk
08/23/2024:
> flaying myself open until slugs burst out and sprawl like yarn
08/18/2024:
> an ever-increasingly painful fight at the self
08/08/2024:
> hyperfocusing on making everything neat & perfect all of the time
08/07/2024:
> 200 democrats sitting in a lab strapped up, training off of a.i. obama data
> my brain splattered on the hot, wet asphalt!!!
08/06/2024:
> it's bonkers to keep doing so... as if doing so ever gets done
07/29/2024:
> richard nixon triangulating jellyfish with heart tumors ecstatically
07/26/2024:
> cannibal ladybug swimming in a jar full of glitter
07/23/2024:
> breakcore citrus in an artificial aquarium; stickered cake
07/20/2024:
> 6th day straight with a migraine; thought diffusion? head dissipated!
07/12/2024:
> using biofeedback to train every drop of piss in my kidney to convert to
good neurotransmitters before reaching bladder; never urinating again
07/07/2024:
> opens my trenchcoat to reveal 24 different rare, taxidermized scarabs
07/03/2024:
> manifesting a giant lesbian harem like the akatsuki
07/01/2024:
> slutty elaine benes lainish linux user with an ed
06/27/2024:
> the character is tamer than the person
06/26/2024:
> melting my brain waves 'til they rainbow stripe off
06/24/2024:
> dumping cortisol juice directly into the dvd slot
06/19/2024:
> oh! i just want to eat peanut butter...
06/14/2024:
> my brain feels like the door ripped off mid-flight
05/31/2024:
> self-liquefy into a 14 count ghost shrimp bucket
05/29/2024:
> french hilary clinton: "escargot to the polls!"
05/25/2024:
> don't belong
05/20/2024:
> my neuroplasticity demon is rubber-banding
05/05/2024:
> the bugs get the last laugh
05/01/2024:
> i'm about to play real life katamari starting with my left testicle
04/30/2024:
> one more coffee
soon the diving beetles roost
04/25/2024:
> unimaginative praying mantis membrane fucker color
04/21/2024:
> cracking pistachios by hand reading das kapital
with evangelion ost blaring in both ears
03/28/2024:
> trying to dress like elaine benes via 80's/90's powersuit
03/21/2024:
> my computer runs on debian & i like worms
03/09/2024:
> obliterate neurons; tinker with carmudgeon goblin
install new-rons: neon genesis evangelion angel
03/02/2024:
> so get this, right.
so like the master boot record can only make 4 partitions.
so like yeah you could slap an
extended partition onto partition 4 or something
& fuck that shit up with some logical partitions. but get this, dude.
you could also literally just fuck with linux's GUID partitioning system
& motherfuicker every hard drive can have 128 PARTITIONS.
EVERY SINGLE ONE.
02/20/2024:
> candle lit: christmas spice
02/18/2024:
> to the tune of death grips' "hacker":
headed for the nerv geofront wing
throw up an at-field at the influx of angels 'n things
on the way; never call it a rei
hotboxing shinji's evangelion for the third impact today
asuka on the way; bigger wings
02/04/2024:
> i am computer